Memories!

I know that my children are only almost 3, but it seems that so much has happened in their short little lives! We have lived in 3 different 'homes' and had so many changes!

The most recent move was not one that we chose, but looking back it was for the best. Tonight we had the chance to walk back into that house and visit with some a friend from our very first church as a married couple and his new wife. They were staying in our old home, the parsonage, and asked if it were not to awekward that we might come and talk for a while. So we dressed the kiddos (they were in their jammies) and headed out the door at 9:45 pm excited to see our friends, with little time to think of where we were going. I expected my daughter who remembers everything to remember our 'old house' since it was just 7 months ago and she remembers things from before that...but for some strange reason they didn't remember it. Maybe because our things were not in it, or because there was ALOT of stress for most of the time that we lived there....or just because they love their life and home so much now they do not need to think about the past at this point. Either way, I remember...

Everything was pretty much the same, just a few minor things had been done since we moved out 7 months ago (VERY MINOR) the carpet, paint, light fixtures, etc. were all the very same. Which maybe only made it easier to think, to think of the victories our son won while we lived there...to think of the mile stones our children acheived behind those four walls.

It was fun and tormenting all at the same time. I watched my son who was suppose to never walk jump down the stairs into the sunk-in living room tonight, the very stairs that were once a huge hurdle for him to the point they were a barrior. The very stairs that he first climbed after being told he wouldn't. And now tonight, those very stairs he was jumping off!

I saw knicks in the walls where our children's toys (specific incidents) bumped, and spots in the carpet where dirt from my plant was thrown while looking through the windows at us after the kids had locked us out!

I saw the very corner that I cried in just days before we were told we needed to leave, that corner was where I prayed and cried knowing that our time there was limited. The banister where my children used to try to squeeze their little cheeks through and look down over my husband and I on the couch...the details my husband put into the house to make it our home.

Yes, tonight brought back a slew of emotions and thoughts. But with all of those memories (and as far as the family part of it goes ~ happy memories) it still didn't hurt to walk away again. It didn't hurt the first time, nor did it hurt this time. I would guess that we will not be back in that house again...and I would also guess that if the church people really knew we were there they may not be too impressed. But I count it as a blessing from God.

First, we were able to catch up with someone who we (mostly my husband) spent many an hour talking to and I thought was such a great guy for making the decisions that he did. Meet his sweetheart of a wife, and have some great time of fellowship.

But second, God allowed me a 'rewind' button tonight. I was just telling my husband the other day that I didn't remember much about our children as babies. That isn't true, and God helped me see that tonight. The memories are tucked away back in my mind to pop up here and there with a trigger. I can have glimpses of that part of their lives here and there, but now...now I need to enjoy where they are a lock away more memories because we all know they grow up TOO fast!

I wouldn't change anything about our lives now, (except for a little bit larger home for daycare & maybe having a baby or two ;) ) But really those things are up to God, not us, and our life is good. Most nights (5 or 6 a week) we have daddy/husband around where before we were lucky to get him one, our kids are happy, and we own our house. We have learned who are real friends are, and those friends are GREAT!

Thank you Lord, for the glimpse into the past...

HELP!!!!!

So, sadly, it is time to start planning birthday parties around here again...and by 'sadly' I mean that I cannot believe the year has gone by already and that my kiddos will be 3 soon!

But I need some help, I know there are great ways to make your own good quality photo invites and send them to a printer to have them printed...but I need HELP! The kids' themes are Mickey (for Boo) & Minnie (for the Princess) Mouse. I would like to put different elements together on my own and send them to a photo procceser, but do not know how to start or get the background/bourder for the foundation....if there is anyone what would have some insight to share I would appreciate it! Thanks so much!

Don't you wish you wouldda thought of it?

The Mind Works Overtime!

Sometimes I just wonder why it is that your mind works the way it does. You want something so badly that they mind tricks you into believing it has to be true! That is until 3 minutes later and it is most definitely NOT true!

I guess it might have something to do with that fact that babies are all around, it seems that there is no circle that we are a part of that there isn't a newborn or one on the way. Seeing the babies all around just makes me want our little EDH or OOH that much more! I don't know why sometimes my mind works the way it does, I know my body is broken...

Congrats to those of you that are having a baby or have just had a baby...you have a blessing!

The mind of The Princess

So it just cracks me up how children think sometimes, and then there are other times that I am in awe because of how their mind works! Well yesterday there was one of the laugh out loud times with my little Princess.

I was scrolling through the channels trying to find something worth watching and one of the locals must have been knocked off air by the storm and upon coming across that channel it showed the colorful stripes running up and down the screen, not moving. We have all seen this before, I am sure....ANYWAY, I quickly moved passed this one because, seriously, how fun is it to watch a non moving stripe of different colors? BUT, the Princess was upset when I changed the channel and said, "Mommy, want to watch color crayons back!" So while it was somewhat of a stressful day, I couldn't help but laugh like crazy at that!

Hope it brings a smile to your face!

Gym Time & a Deal!

So I am really excited, my husband has gotten us a gym membership and we are using it! It helps to finally have him beside me and pushing me rather than to have to go do something by myself all the time...I think I will stick to it! Anyway, we made a deal...I officially want to loose 58 pounds total, as of my last weigh in I was 57 away from that {down 1 pound}. But I made a deal with Handsome and if I get down 43 {15 away from my final but most likely unreachable - due to PCOS - goal} he is going to allow me to get the Black.Hills.Gold. toe ring I have wanted for my right foot since I got the one for my left foot as a senior in high school!

I am really excited, and hope to be able to loose a bunch of weight, at least enough to wow his family when we see them at Christmas!

What kind of world?

I have not spoken much to anyone about the death of Michael.Jackson. Though today during the kids' lunch & nap times I did have his memorial service on FOX.News and I must say that it was an amazing service to watch, though sad.

The thing that caught my ear first was the many times that he was ALMOST compared to God. Do not get me wrong, I know that MJ is a legend of his own right when it comes to Pop...and there are even a few songs that I enjoy, but he was a man.

The other thing has nothing to do with MJ himself, just the sad world that we live in. There were two different times (I didn't watch the entire service so there could have been more) that people speaking of Christian faith had to ask for a pardon, so to speak. The first one that I noticed was when Representative Sheila.Jackson.Lee went to compare Jackson to the New Testament parable of the Good Samaritan. Before speaking of the parable, she made a statement along the lines of, 'I recognize that there are many of you from many different religions here and we in America respect that,' and the second came at the end when the pastor, Lucious.Smith got up to end the service with a prayer. Just before the prayer he felt the need to say, "If you are so inclined to do so, please bow your heads with me."

Why is it that we need to ask people to forgive us or turn a cheek to the fact that there are still some people that want to worship and serve the very God that created this world and our very being?

But lastly I want to point out his daughter Paris, she spoke briefly toward the end of the service and made a comment about since she was born that he had been the very best and she loves her Daddy very much. I had never thought of MJ in the 'Daddy' role before...he had come to mind as many different things, but not as a father. But he was, and his children do love him very much. Maybe the labels that he acquired over the years where a little harsh, or maybe they were deserved....but at the end of the day, he was Daddy.

Nothing better than...

So I am sure we have all had the Better than *** cake, right? Well while I was getting ready this morning I discovered something that I only get to discover 2-3 times a year that just beats all!

A BRAND NEW TUBE OF MASCARA!

Am I right girls? I mean seriously, you open that non gunked up tube and your eyes look amazing because it slides on so easy and covers every.last.lash!

So I am going to have a good day, that was like Christmas in a tube this morning...I loved it!

PCOS is taking my life one day at a time!

So I just need a post to vent. Yesterday was an awful day, PCOS took my day away from me. There are times when it gets so bad that I just do not see any reason to smile, to enjoy life, to have fun. Yesterday was one of those days. Please know, this isn't a crazy not right in the head kind of thing...just sometimes it is hard to smile. If you do not have PCOS and think your hormones affect your life something terrible multiply that by 100 and that is what we get!

But, as usual, today proves to be a better day and for this I am SOOOOO thankful! It is a long weekend, my mom is here....Dad is coming soon, and we are going SHOPPING! So excited!